Owarimonogatari Episode 5: Sodachi Lost, Part Two
Stupid sexy Oikura.
Is it wrong that I found her voice really erotic? How Much-chan spent the episode talking about how shitty her childhood was, and all I could think of was ‘shit, her voice is hot’. And when it got all soft as her bitterness increased, that was just hnnnngg. It didn’t help that she was wearing hardly anything either. And in twintails. But hey, at least she didn’t kill her mother, right?
Sorry, that escalated a little too quickly. I finally get why Oikura made her silent plea of help to Araragi in the way she did – and why she even made it at all, in the hopes that he’d pick up on things and inform his parents. It really would have been a stretch to expect him to do something like that just because his parents were police officers, but that wasn’t the crucial factor – it was that his parents have taken care of Oikura before. In other words, there was a precedent for them taking her into custody, and so she wasn’t just relying on some wild delusion that Araragi’s parents could save her just because of their profession. Now that I know this, I can see why she feels so salty about it – because the issue now turns on the fact that Araragi apparently has a terrible memory, and has forgotten about Oikura three times now, all at different stages of her life. Even Sengoku remembers (it was nice seeing a non-yandere Nadeko by the way, I’d forgotten how cute Smoke Weed Everyday could be). From my point of view though, it didn’t look like she was sucking up to him during those tutoring sessions – it looked like she was just being nice and helping out of kindness. Of course, that’s because we’ve only ever seen it from Araragi’s viewpoint.
I agree with Hanekawa, as ever – Oikura has not tried to make herself happy at all. It was a shit childhood, yeah, but all she’s done to rectify that has been to stay in her room for two years and wallow in hate and bitterness. And when she tries to think in positive terms, it makes her seem more broken than she already is – who forces themselves to think that it’s a good thing their mother hasn’t disappeared so that they can continue to claim benefits? That’s darker than it first sounds. It feels like she’s given up, and the way she’s coped with it makes her less sympathetic than she really should be – because it was a hard life. My heart went out to her when she said she’d thought her house was the norm all along, and that she thought Araragi was just showing off with how calm things were with his family. So I can see why she’d make Araragi the target of her hate, and why (in her mental state) she’d choose to blame it all on him, but it’s ultimately not his fault, is it? He is, to some small extent, to blame perhaps, but the way Oikura has turned out is mostly due to her parents and ultimately herself.
Hanekawa has had domestic violence issues too, hasn’t she? If anything, I hope it’s her who gets Oikura back on the right track. It feels like it’d be Araragi who does it, but her hate for him might be too ingrained for things between them to change so easily, even if she’s aware that she’s just scapegoating him for convenience. Hanekawa is definitely a better person to deal with this than Ougi, by the way – if it was Ougi, she’d probably make Oikura feel so bad about herself that her mental state becomes even more unstable. Ougi may be useful for other things, but healing is definitely not one of them. In asking for help from Araragi and Hanekawa (and I was surprised she even asked anything of them at all) maybe she can some to some sort of closure, if nothing else. She definitely needs it.