Gangsta is the kind of show that leaves a heavy impression but makes you weary to watch the next episode. I always wish I was watching the entire anime at once because I never feel good going into this show. Do not mistake my hesitation for dislike, Gangsta is an engaging and awesome show. This doesn’t change the fact that it gets very dark in this series and this episode wants to try and take the trophy for most depressing by far. (But let’s be legitimate, it will get worse than this.)
Today’s episode is titled Bad Dad Committee for one simple reason: This episode has a lot to do with Worick and Nicolas’ terrible father’s and how legitimately awful they are at being human beings. I watched most of this episode with a wince on my face because I couldn’t believe the sheer levels of asshole this went to. We’ve seen this show and how absolutely horrible it could be and we even saw how Worick’s father wasn’t exactly father of the year: but Nicolas’ father flat out killed his mother.
I just couldn’t bring myself to be happy at anything this episode and that was clearly the point. Everything was supposed to make me feel like crap. We have a drug conspiracy and a bunch of issues with Twilights but the only thing that hit me was every time Worick said “I fell” when it was clear he was hit. He never admitted it even though Nicolas knew and that’s probably why he didn’t even stutter. He could say ‘I fell’ and it was really him saying ‘He hit me’. And Nicolas knew.
Everything about all of these characters just makes me want to ship them in a crate to a desert paradise. I want all three of them to enter a completely polyamorous relationship and have oodles of cuddles because let’s be for real here there is too much prostitution and sadness in this show. We find out Alex has been drugged to be submissive and it fits the opening so well! All I can do is kind of uncomfortably try not to sob as I think about just how terrible life has been for these three and they’re just…living.
I think the emotional rollercoaster is riding along with the conspiracy, and right as we learn all the important revelations and have Nic and Worick fight some badass people, Alex will have regained her sense of self and be a badass herself. I want to cry about most of this show already and we’re only half way in. My life is going to be hell for the next month and a half.
There is no better way to describe Gangsta than to say it leaves you so emotionally drained you want to keep watching to find happiness and silver linings and you realize: you are likely not going to get much more than the connections and comfort between characters to make yourself feel better. You will likely never walk out of Gangsta feeling emotionally complete but instead realizing only the broken shards of people working together can fill the void it leaves. For Gangsta, the relationship between friends and partners is the only thing that can fix the pain of the past and help you move forward.
Where’s the glue I need to fix these guys!?
Oki