Re:Zero kara Hajimeru Isekai Seikatsu Episode 15: The Outside of Madness
This is too cruel.
Why am I even watching this? Just to suffer? I don’t know how much more of this I can take. And why is it Rem who suffers the most?! She did nothing wrong! Seeing Ram and Emilia dead, Petra with her eyes gouged out and Rem stabbed through the head was bad enough. It was as bad as I thought it would get, actually. But that fucking piece of shit Betelgeuse twisting Rem’s limbs while mimicking her screams of pain made my stomach turn more than any other death has so far. And holy shit, that wasn’t even the worst part – the fact that she somehow crawled her way to Subaru and used the last of her own blood to break his chains before dying meant that she was actually still alive during all that suffering. Is this how they’re maintaining the shock factor across all these deaths? Excessive cruelty? Just because we know they can come back to life if Subaru rewinds time, each death becomes more gruesome for the sake of our despair? I don’t know how this Betelgeuse dude is going to die at the end of this arc, or whether he’s even going to die at all. But I swear to god, if or when he does, it had better be full of pain, torture and suffering. I’m not going to accept any less. And I hope Subaru will agree with me.
I’m still reeling. What an episode. It’s at times like this that you feel nothing but sympathy for Subaru – all the frustration and irritation that I’ve had for him in recent episodes has vanished entirely. I suppose I feel lots of pity for him too, and I hope that he can somehow find some way out of all this, although I really have no idea how on earth he’ll succeed without external help. Nor can he just avoid Betelgeuse or stay far away from him in order to keep his life – if he doesn’t do anything, the witch cultists will undoubtedly attack the mansion and everyone will die. I’m not sure what ends up happening to Roswaal and Betty, but presumably they fail to stand their ground and die as well. Anyone who approaches the mansion anytime after that ends up being killed by an enraged giant Puck, who for some reason has lost all rationality and will freeze anyone on sight no matter who they are. It genuinely surprised me that both of Subaru’s deaths this episode were because of Puck – you’d think it’d be due to Betelgeuse or one of the cultists, but they’re only indirectly at fault for causing the entire mess in the first place.
My next question (my main question, really) is why. Why is all this even happening? If Betelgeuse worships Satella, why is he even doing this to Subaru? I thought Satella’s scent was going to be Subaru’s biggest protection this arc, because it’d cause the cultists to avoid him – last week they even fucking bowed to him in respect! Wasn’t that because they recognised he was someone important to Satella? So why did they run off with him in the second loop? Is it because Rem was with him? I’m kicking myself for thinking that he could have possibly even used their help somehow, or bargained with them. What changed? He’s loved by the witch they worship, right? I’m also confused by why Betelgeuse thought he had something to do with Pride – presumably one of the seven deadly sins, as Betelgeuse himself is Sloth. Does he (or is he supposed to) even like the sin he represents? He hates slothfulness, right? Not that I would expect anything this insane motherfucker says to make sense.
I’ve got two more things to say about him. The first is that he’s voiced by Matsuoka Yoshitsugu, which is an absolutely mind-blowing revelation. Matsuoka is one of those seiyuu who’s often criticised by many (including me) for not having any range beyond his Kirito voice – but his Betelgeuse was incredible, so much so that I didn’t believe it was him until I checked for myself. It’s totally out of character for him given the sort of roles he tends to play, but it’s really quite remarkable. Second, his odd comment about Subaru pretending to have lost his mind was rather thought-provoking. Was he really faking it? I’d have been suspicious too if he’d only started acting like that after being captured, but what reason would he have to pretend in front of Crusch and Rem? Or is Betelgeuse’s definition of insane just too different from Subaru and his current mental state?
I can probably come up with more to say if I felt like it, but I think I’m done. I was planning to start watching some stuff from the new season after writing this, but I’m not even in the mood now. I’m just going to go get a good night’s rest, and hopefully wake up in the morning without Subaru’s screams of anguish echoing in my ears. I could also do without thinking back about Rem’s dying breaths and her confession of love to Subaru in her final moments, that was fucking suffering. Rem is such a good girl ;_;