Yahari Ore no Seishun Love Come wa Machigatteiru. Zoku Episode 7
“If this is all it takes to tear us apart, then maybe we weren’t all that close to begin with.”
So many of the girls in Oregairu are just wonderful. All of them make me smile, except for Orimoto. And yet, all of them are suffering inside. It breaks my heart. I feel like Hikki is somehow blaming himself for the current state of affairs – in saying that the reality of it all hasn’t quite matched up with his ideals, he’s implying that it’s his fault that things ended up this way in the first place. I won’t say he’s got nothing to do with it at all, but at the same time I think he’s being too hard on himself. It does seem like he’s finally realised the repercussions of his methods, though – and that it might be adversely affecting the people around him more than he’s thought. An easy example is Tsurumi Rumi, who I was very happy to see again. She looks like she’s gotten a little older – but she’s still alone. By destroying all the relationships around her, Hikki stopped her classmates from actively picking on her back at the summer camp. But it’s done nothing to help her make any friends, and it’s persisted till now. It’s not like his methods didn’t do anything -in fact, given the short amount of time he had to work with, I like how he managed to create an impact at all- but like Yukinon said before, it hasn’t done anything to solve the underlying problem. Rumi doesn’t seem to actively hold anything against Hikki though, which is nice – I suspect she was perceptive enough to understand what he was trying to do even back then.
It’s much the same with Irohasu. Hikki has decided to take responsibility and help her out, but so far she’s just been a cute little thing that hasn’t done much – and as the student council president, she has to be much more than that. Hikki won’t be around each and every time, and ultimately she has to learn how to take the reins by herself and work with the people she needs to be working with – although I fully understand why she’s a bit edgy around Tamanawa. I would be too, Irohasu! But it still feels like Hikki has been the one doing the heavy lifting thus far, not only for Sobu High but for both sides in general – he’s essentially the only one truly committed producing results for a project that is otherwise falling apart. It feels exactly like how Yukinon carried the entire cultural festival committee as the only competent person there – although Irohasu has nothing on the obnoxious Sagami. I guess Irohasu is aware of it to some extent, and that she should be doing more given the position she is now in. It was like she was sullenly pre-occupied this episode.
The rest of them are absolutely useless. I mean, Tamanawa calls in a whole group of elementary school students, then just abandons them! All he’s good for is rhetoric, if even that, and it doesn’t look like he can get anything done at all. It really is falling apart – they’re leisurely exploring their options whilst running out of time, then moving on to discuss the very fact that they’re short on time. And after every few suggestions Orimoto starts her preaching. I will say that I really was surprised by how Orimoto said nothing when pressed by Irohasu into talking about her past with Hikki. This is the first time she hasn’t been an insensitive cunt to Hikki! It didn’t seem like anything much had changed when she spoke to him last episode, but maybe Hayato did knock her down a few pegs. That, and seeing Irohasu so close to Hikki might have cemented the idea that he isn’t as socially reclusive as she’s assumed all this time – although Hikki himself would wear that label with pride. The other supporting character who said something surprising this week was Hayato. He has layers, like a lot of his schoolmates, so it was expected that he’s not as nice of a guy as Hikki would like to think – but I do believe Hayato would have helped Irohasu had she asked. Is there a reason why he wouldn’t? If it was Yukinon who asked, then I could see why, but Irohasu?
As for the Service Club, it feels like it’s all hit rock bottom. Yui has been putting on her best smile, but even her yahallo is awkwardly forced now. It really is saying something that she’s specifically asking Hikki whether he’ll be at club every day – as if anticipating that his presence will gradually fade as the rift between them grows wider. And that’s exactly what’s happening – he’s gone from leaving early to now being told by Yukinon that he can take some time off completely. She looked so heartbreakingly depressed during that final scene, and so was I. Feel was magnificent here. It’s so horrible seeing them act more and more distant week on week, almost as if they’re strangers now who just happen to be in the same club. I want the confident, sharp-tongued Yukinon back again ;_; I think that’s what’s up with her – in giving Hikki free rein and talking about not having to ask permission and stuff, it’s like she’s feeling unneeded and unconfident in herself and her methods. All this time it has been Hikki who has solved things, but now Yukinon is practically giving up on him at a time when Hikki himself has run into trouble – he doesn’t know how to work things out with Rumi, or what to do with Irohasu’s request. But he isn’t saying anything. Yukinon isn’t saying anything. And neither is Yui. The end title is right: even though things are as they are, ‘that room continues to portray an endless everyday scene’. And this can’t be the ideal outcome Hikki wished for.
Yukinon Ballade is even more beautiful than Yui Ballade. I want to give her a big hug ;_;