Yahari Ore no Seishun Love Come wa Machigatteiru. Zoku Episode 2
“I really hate the way you do things.”
I stand by what I said last week – Hikki is not wrong. But at the same time, now I cannot agree more with Hayato, Yukinon and Yui. I didn’t really mind during the cultural festival, but I don’t like the way he did things this time. I just don’t think it was worth the damage to himself and to his relationships with the people around him.
I don’t think that clique is ‘shallow’. I understand why Hikki says it is for sure – it’s superficial, and conforming to the group and staying ‘in’ is everything. Even so, the way they all individually approached Hikki indicates that they do value their friendships, even if they don’t look like they’re thinking too hard about it. But neither Hayato nor Yumiko were in any position to speak out – they were both talking like they knew what was best for Ebina. And I wasn’t too fond about what Hayato said in particular – that he was interfering because he liked the way things currently were, and didn’t want anything to change. I know this wasn’t too much of a problem because Ebina wasn’t willing to go out with Tobe anyway, but what if she was? Would Hayato still get in the way and justify it on the same grounds? Surely it’s not something he should have any say on, purely because he wants things to stay as they are? As for Yumiko, it was surprisingly perceptive of her to pick up on what was going on, even though she also ended up preaching about what she thought Ebina wanted. I guess it’s a social issue after all. At any rate, Ebina herself implicitly asked for the status quo in her clique to be maintained, and so ultimately that’s the result Hikki would try to procure.
In the end, the confession was very much a formality. All the people who were involved already knew what was going on, and it just needed to be acted out. An acceptance would be impossible on Ebina’s part. A rejection would both crush Tobe and have their clique fall apart from the ensuing awkwardness. So the only way to fulfil prevent both those outcomes was to have someone else initiate the blandest confession possible, with Ebina playing along and replying with the blandest possible rejection – a rejection which also implicitly includes Tobe, but in such an indirect way that he doesn’t suffer any damage. That someone was Hikki. As someone who both has a low social standing and doesn’t give a damn, it’s objectively the best possible outcome to have Hikki commit social suicide yet again and take one for the team. But it’s bruising for him too, you know? During the cultural festival, it was just Hayato and a couple of random girls listening in. This time, it hurt Yukinon. And even more than Yukinon, it hurt Yui. It’s obvious that Yui would react differently – she’s sweet and precious, and that’s why she’s best girl. So even though Hikki didn’t accept it, a fucking apology is the least Hayato could give him. I never want to see Yui cry like that again.
I don’t think it was worth it at all. It might sound really weird out of context, but Hikki is too nice of a person. It’s not like Tobe has ever done anything in particular for him, either. It’s true that no-one did anything for him back at the cultural festival as well, but back then it didn’t involve any backlash from Yukinon and Yui. To keep together a clique he considers as ‘shallow’, he’s hurt both himself and the people around him – including the two girls he’s probably closest to calling actual friends, even though Yukino would never admit it. These girls actually care about him, and he didn’t give a shit. I agree with so many of the things Hikki says, but this is too sacrificial for my liking.
I wonder what this means for Hikki and his relationship with Yui. I can’t help but feel that some of those tears were because he confessed to someone else in front of her, even though she quickly tested the waters and made sure it was fake. Hikki knows that Yui likes him, and he also knows that Yui is a touchy-feely person – that’s just how she is. It was always going to be a long-term thing to get past his defences, but Hikki was giving in – slowly, but he was giving in nonetheless. In this episode he even helped her up and shared food with her and Yukinon. Things were pretty good between the three of them, especially after all that drama over the car accident. But now Hikki has decided to become a fucking martyr. In the aftermath, Ebina talks about the way in which he treats people who don’t matter. What I find really sad is that he thinks of himself as one of those people.