Kamisama no Inai Nichiyoubi Episode 3

“I… want to die happy.”

Impression:
OH MY GOD WHY DID THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN
I DIDN’T SIGN UP FOR THIS
NO. THIS HAPPENED ALL TO FAST, HUMBERT WAS MY FAVORITE AND- AND- AND,
JUST LIKE THAT? JUST LIKE THAT HE’S GONE?
That’s just not fair, not fair at all. My heart, I am in absolute tears right now. I can’t believe it, I can’t believe I can’t believe, god damnit all! This is like just- ARG, I’m emotionally frustrated because I really really REALLY wanted to see Ai and him go on their father-daughter adventure together and it just crushes my soul that in order to grant his wish of wanting to die happy, I know this is probably the most beautiful “death” he will ever get but it just- crap where’s my tissue I think I’m out of tissues-
Basically this is me right now, no good. The most accurate GIF I can give you right now.

*BREATHES* This episode truly felt like a finale due to Humbert’s, or rather Kizuna’s story wrapped up, as it appears this will very well his last episode (and as much as I heartbroken by it, I have to say- they nailed it). Everything that happened, as a bit rushed as it felt, delivered a heartfelt impact. It was incredibly emotional despite the fact I was confident that Kizuna was Ai’s father all long when Yuri showed Ai the picture we saw last week, proving that Hana was her mother all long. Then my heart just shattered in a million pieces when we learned that when Kizuna suffers from assaults that causes a trauma (or whatever, don’t make me go back to double-check I can barely see the screen right now because of my tears) and makes him lose his memory, I realized that he may had lost his memory of when Hana had left “without a trace”. But regardless of what the truth was, it was even more heart wrenching when we learned all he wanted was to die happy and then when he learned that Ai was his daughter, and during that scene for the first time in the longest time- He didn’t want to die- just…. *BAWLING*
While I am happy that he was able to have that wish granted, at the same time I am just-  I can’t get over it. Like I said, he was already my favorite character and to have him out of the game so early on- god really want him to make a come back I really do. Like having those still-images of holding hands, playing together and all that fluff happen within a span of 30 seconds is not enough. I feel like I can’t accept this. Hopefully by the next episode I will, but *new tissue* right now- I am just a mess. My emotions are all over the place.

Damnit, guys I can’t write like a full out analysis this episode despite the fact that I know there’s a lot to talk about, but this basically sums up how I feel so BRB I am just going to resume drowning in my tears thank you very much.